Points

In your highest point

too high, that you have no words to describe your contentment

In your lowest point

too low, that you have no words to describe your obsolescence

 

Maybe then, we make peace with all the things that we couldn’t accept

in between these points of our life.

 

//

irene

 

Around and Surround

I found it very interesting how God work around me to show me the answer to my uncertainties and anxieties.

I just posted a blog last week of what I would tell you if we were having coffee together. Littlest that I know that on the same week I will receive an encouragement (read: answer) from God.

I wrote about my fear, and this part of this song, ‘No Longer Slaves’, is like a gentle nudge to remind me why I shouldn’t feel that way.

I’m no longer a slave to fear

I am a child of God

 

 

You split the sea, so I could walk right through it

My fears were drowned in perfect love

You rescued me so I could stand and sing

I am a child of God

 

Blessings to all

//

Irene

If we were having coffee..

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I would tell you that I have this fear that I cannot quite explain.

I fear of failure

I fear of making the wrong decision

I fear of being judged

I fear of being imperfect and not accepted because of it

Most of all, I fear of being judged. I fear that my decisions in life is not the best that I could have made and I will be judged for it. I fear that my imperfections caused inconvenience to the people around me and they will be judged because of me and my competence due to this imperfections. I feel that I am always being chased by this so called ‘Judgements’.

I felt like I have spent my whole life trying to get people’s approval and I am not even sure why  I started becoming like this.

Did you see that I always start my sentences with I. I sounded so selfish because I always talk about ‘I’, but isn’t it ironic that ‘I’ always depends on other people’s “yes”?

This surely is something that I will never tell you all. Because we may not have the chance to have coffee together.

What would you tell me if we were having coffee together?

 

//Irene

 

 

 

U plus Me Equals Love, U plus Me Equals Us

 

Current music obsession goes to *DRUMROLLS* Gnash!!

I started listening to I Hate You, I Love You. The music and lyrics were sad, tallied well together to create the unspoken emotions that moved me in some way. Not really because I can relate to the lyrics, but its just such a beautiful sad music.

Then, i started listening to more of his song and pretty much likes them all. I want people to listen and appreciate his music too, so here I am sharing my new obsession 🙂 and here’s hoping he won’t stop making great music (that’s not mainstream) you know what I mean. 🙂

‘leave a message’

//

Irene

Even When It Hurts

 

Take this mountain weight
Take these ocean tears
Hold me through the trial
Come like hope again

Even when the fight seems lost
I’ll praise You
Even when it hurts like hell
I’ll praise You
Even when it makes no sense to sing
Louder then I’ll sing Your praise

– Even When It Hurts (Hillsong United)

I found this song when I was browsing for some worship song. The song shouts desperation and the will to keep believing and praising the Lord, even when we are at the bottom of our suffering, loneliness, uncertainties and the state where we can no longer do anything but to lift up our worries and life into His hand.

I was asked last night to let go of my life completely into His hand, to prepare myself that our plan may not be in line with His plan. Despite having encountering God in many ways in my life, I am scared. I am still scared. I am scared that I will have to leave all the expectations and hopes that I had for our future life.

I cried and I cried.

And I cried again today.

To be honest, it is not easy to trust in God completely. I am sure I am not the only one who is feeling this way. This song really hits right home at this very moment, and if any of you are feeling the same, let us pray together to lift up all our worries and praise Him.

Here is to keep reminding ourselves to keep on praying and praising.

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Their Legacy of Prayer

Reflect On: Genesis 12:1-9

Praise God: For His sovereign ability to plan and control life and for having a distinct plan for your life. 

Offer Thanks: That God’s plan is for your good and His glory, no matter where He leads, and that He is always with you to guide and instruct you. 

Confess: Your unbelief in God’s goodness and ability to work on your behalf when you cannot understand your circumstances. 

Ask God: To give you the gift of faith that will allow you to trust Him and His word, and to give you a calm willingness to accept where He is leading when doubts arise. 

Listen: “Dear children, I have a great and wonderful plan for you — a plan that was established for you long before time began. Walk in My ways and follow My leading. I will be with you always.” 

Pray: Father of our lives and future, we know that You have a wonderful and specific plan for us. Whether that means ministering right here in our home or going to the ends of the earth, we want to trust and obey You. Help us to be faithful to Your call, no matter what fears or doubts arise. Strengthen us with Your truth so we may go forward in faith, even into the unknown, and accomplish what You have planned for the future. Amen. 

Excerpted with permission from Couples of the Bible by Robert and Bobbie Wolgemuth, copyright Robert D. Wolgemuth and Barbara J. Wolgemuth.

Taken from : http://www.faithgateway.com/god-plan-life/#.Vzm_NKvFfP5

 

love // irene

 

 

When There Seems to be No Way…

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This is my testimony.

On my way back home from an Indonesian Catholic Community event, I took my tram home, and not long after getting onto it was told that they will be diverting my tram due to an accident in High street and no tram can pass through, so the tram will head back to city after a few stops. It was late at night, dark and in my tram line there were usually a lot of drunks travelling with tram. I got off the tram, and started walking together with the rest of the people that got off, thinking that they may know where to catch other types of transport while I am searching the other way to go home using the public transport app in my phone.

After walking for a few minutes, I found out that the closest train station was one kilometre away, my phone has less than 20% battery and I am getting nervous. Also, seems like everyone who I was walking with are all gone to their own direction. So I was left alone confused, not sure where and what route I should take to go home. I thought of taking taxi, but since I have to go through high St if I took it, I don’t think it was a good idea as there will be traffic jam in that street, and I will ended up paying so much more.

At that time, I was scared and do not know what to do. And then I was reminded of the sermon that I heard that night. Deacon Malcolm mentioned to Let go of my worries and God will take care for me the things that is out of my reach. So I did, While I was walking back to tram stop for route 86, I wasn’t even praying, I was just saying in my heart, ‘God, help me. I don’t know how to go home’. I waited a few minutes, had a look at my ptv app again and there were no more information of the tram disruptions, and I can see there were an 86 tram coming. I went in and asked someone on the tram, and he told me that all has been cleared out and will go all the way to my suburb. I also found out that this tram was the tram that I took previously, was diverted back to city and then was informed to go back to its supposed way.  I was very relieved and grateful. I believe that this is the work of God and I would like to share it to all of you who came across this blog post. The lesson I learnt last night was that when there seems to be no way, we should keep on having faith in God’s plan because he will never abandon us.

27My sheep listen to My voice; I know them,and they follow Me. 28I give them eternal life, and they will never perish. – John 10:27-28

 

love // irene

 

My First Scooter Experience!

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It has been a couple of weeks since I last post a blog, and the reason was because I was away on the Anzac day weekend to have a mini getaway in Bali before I started my new job. I was so happy to be able spend some quality time with my partner 😀 my smile pretty much stretched from ear-to-ear everyday up until the night when we need to part. I will talk more about my mini getaway in another post, but in this post I’d love to share my experience being on a scooter and some handy tips if you are planning to do this in your next visit to Bali!!

I was actually quite skeptical and scared about being on one and ‘dibonceng’,meaning sitting on the passenger seat of the scooter. But since Alex used to ride motorcycle in his high school days, I trust that he will bring us to destination and back safely. Despite believing in him, I hugged him so tight like a koala hugging the tree for the first few minutes, as I felt super nervous about being among cars and other motorcycles on the road. My heart was racing! Thankfully I started feeling relax after feeling the breeze from the moving scooter, reminding me of how I felt when I was in a becak (tricycle). Have you ever been in a becak? if you haven’t, I strongly urge you to try it before this traditional vehicle is completely swept away from the streets in cities in Indonesia. I always enjoy traveling with becak every where when I live in Curup and Palembang, in Sumatra island.

My overall experience on the scooter were quite positive thanks to Alex’s safe riding. Renting scooter is cheap in Bali, and we get to experience being on the street, blending in with the natives. We spend Rp 50.ooo – 80.000 a day, or $5- $8 for our transport for the whole day (for both of us) and we can go to pretty much anywhere we want to go. The wind really helps to cool you down in hot days. Tips: We found that sometimes GPS is not entirely reliable and asking people on the street was a great help. So don’t be afraid to ask for direction when you are lost, I found Balinese are very kind and eager to help.

The only downside of scooter is that we had to inhale the polluted air and exposed to street dusts. We had to make a stop to get ourselves some eye drops because the polluted wind and dust is not a good friend of our eyes. I believe you can buy some masks to reduce the pollutant inhaled in the convenience stores around Bali.

Another tip: Bali is super hot and humid, any day and month, I would suggest to ride bike either early in the morning, or afternoon when the sun is less glaring. Also, always apply your sunscreen prior to stepping out the door and always reapply every 3-4 hours.

So yeah, I had a great time being on a moving scooter, and I am so happy that I get to experience Bali this way. This is me and Alex with our helmet on :). Remember, safety first!

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Have you ever travelled with scooter/motorcycle in Bali?

love // irene